How can i become "myself" around my boyfriend?

okay i love my boyfriend & i am myself but how do i just ramdomly kiss him or just ramdomly hold his hand cause im scared hes not going to want to so that would be embaressing ... is this true guys or do you think he wants me to kiss him? i really need to know like we do kiss but im always scared to make the frist moveeee $: pleaseeeeeeee help asaapp <3 thanksss, &&& if you want email meee, briannageorge@hotmail.com ;)